In continuation of my previous post….
I somehow managed to get into Spencer’s.
I was reluctant to accept the change that no body is behind me to say “I am there with you”.
actually i was used to this psychological dependence from my childhood, these words will be uttered by my Mother/father/brother/sister/lover(now my husband:-))/Friends.
Now all alone in the new job, felt like a lonely tree without roots to hold.
The day of Induction in Calcutta, there were around 50 new joiners in my batch, We were called RMT-2007 (Retail Management Trainees). We are from different parts of the country.
“Bony from manipur, studied … here, my hobbies are….., My strengths are….., I enjoy…..”
“Vishal anand from pune, ……………….” he was speaking atleast for 2 min. Many followed and spoke fluently except one or two like me
“Shalini from TN” thats it. I couldnt speak more. I wondered where these people got the flow?
It was break, 4 to 5 like minds formed their own group, its awkward to stay alone so i tried to cling to one of the groups, actually i couldn’t get along well with groups.
That was 6 days induction programme. Was in the same scene for 3 days. People gave their views, answered uninterruptedly when asked a question, Shooting questions (some of the questions was what i thought but decided not to ask). I was a silent observer.
What the hell am I doing here?
I was pissed off….. so much of anger. Decided to interact something weather its right or wrong….
4 th day I dont want to think what will happen if i am wrong, how fluent will I be?, what others will think if it is a stupid question?…. didnt give time for my mind to think of these….
Just asked a few questions, people around looked at me as if unexpected happened.
That was the time when I broke my inhibitions, that anger made me to do…
Later I was fair in interacting with people and last 3 days passed with ease.
Take away point : We will be good at certain skills but will be reluctant to exhibit that skill in a new environment, Just break your inhibition after all you will be master of it after breaking the inhibitions.